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Dear Diary ,

 I find myself in a strange place these days ..... One..... I am loving the professional side of life as my job seems to give me enuf opportunity to Help others ( though we get the interest , still ) I know that i am helping people in sum way . On the personal front i find myself in a strange place . there is this term called “ guilty pleasure “ , i have to confess that i am indulging into this term quite often these days . Though my domain of action restricts to Good Morning , Ensuring she has her lunch in time , good nite .... and some general chats on wassup occasionally . To speak the truth I am basically living on these things these days ..... The happiness that engulfs me ( on the mere reply of a gd nite or a gud morn ) is enormous . Its something i am not used to for almost a decade now. Its a welcome change to the state of despair that overwhelmed me for long now. 

                                              Very often i find myself imagining my life with her ..... those imaginations drive me crazily happy ...... whether be it me getting married to her ..... or me waking up to find her cute face on the side pillow .... or it be us wrking in the same branch ..... or me being there in the first row of Audience for her Retirement ...... spending the long days post our retirement with together ........ and so on and on on....... Sometimes I dream of one of these ones .... only to forget the dream in the morning .... but the heart seldom forgets the feel .... i end up spending the whole day happy and merry ( without even knowing the reason ) ...  i eventually end up remembering the dream sometimes late in the eve ..... so one good dream equals A good Day and work and Good Night Sleep too ( actually 4-5 hours of sleep on some occasions) .

    If the mere thought of her being with me can make my life so good ..... I wonder what her actual presence  would transform my life into .......... J J