Sunday, 14 April 2013

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Dear Diary ,

There are a lot of things which i am good at .....  Confidence has never been one of them .....i admit to it ...... but she somehow seems to have infused a never before experienced trait of confidence in me ...... you should see the way i handle things these days .... I just keep surprising myself . That is the effect she has on me ..... I just love how she makes me feel ... i just wish i too made her feel this way !!
   Did you see the Pic that's been my wallpaper ( both mobile & laptop ) for the last few days .... thats a pic of little Shmi ( yes thats the nickname i got her ..... Rash was way too rash for my liking , good or bad i dont know ... but i like " Shmi ") . So thats a pic of her childhood .. i dont think i have seen a cuter kid in my whole life .... :) , wat do u say ??  So there is something i said to myself the first time i saw that pic .... once i had adored the pic to my heart's full content ..... i looked at that pic and i told myself,"My daughter will look just like that " :)
     The Me I know would never have the confidence to say something like that .... i'd  never expected that level of confidence  from myself .....
          The truth is that I hardly have a chance to make this work ... i am no charmer .. i know that .... moreover the odds are totally against me .... but some how deep inside a voice keeps teling me that I will make this work ... the voice may not be loud or prominent .. but it's a persistent one ..... I somehow believe that this dream of mine would come true ..... I just hope so... ... i seriously hope so .....  & I wish i do more than just hoping ...... not sure how , or what . but something more ....
     

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